The last two days I have been thinking about something pretty much constantly. It is hard to summarize on paper, but in a nutshell it is: at what point in my life will I be satisfied with the now? In review of my past year, (this has actually been a challenge for me extending well beyond this past year...) I don't think that I have ever taken a moment to just sit back, relax, and enjoy the now. By "now" I mean the exact minute, hour, day, etc. It seems that I have been waking up each morning with the hopes that the day will just go by quickly (whether it be work, studying, my primary class, my commute to work, etc.) When I look back, it seems that I never really even paid much attention to what was going on in this year. My entire focus has been..."next year, when Kyle is in dental school" or "when we start a family" or "when I am done with my tests," etc., I think you get the point.
So for the next little while, I am going to focus on being still and just enjoying life as it happens. I going to try to not stress [myself out] that I have a test in less than a month that I am more than under-prepared for or that we are moving in a little over a month and we have no idea where we will live or where I will work or how we are going to move our stuff there or how we will pay for school. Don't get me wrong, I am not going to ignore these things, I am just going to try to enjoy the process of accomplishing them.
I would love to hear all of your thoughts on how you maintain focus on the present without constantly stressing about the future.
